the last day
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
what do jim carroll and sam willetts have in common? i guess thursday was a real moment, a melting i suppose, water bursting through the bottom of the old proverbial bucket. well when ella was running for the taxi, the whisky fell straight through the bottom of the carrier bag. it smashed. i guess that was too much for me. what do notting hill, brixton, and that straight chick emma’s room have in common? i cried you know.
this really is the saddest story.
lol.
i guess i’m a thief. indeed that day i stole five pounds and a new bottle opener from charity. the week before i’d found two old chairs. i guess i just want relationships for free. i guess i’m still looking.
lol.
i kind of wonder though how people go about stealing jackets from clubs. its january, so they must already have one. so do they just walk out the club with another one slung over their arm? and just hail a taxi, or worse, get on the bus? there must be a law about that. you never get relationships for free
i also wonder what that guy must have thought when he looked through the notebook. its a shame, because i’ve had it for a month and i’d written so much in it, but i guess the first real thing i would have had to write in it would have been this. its funny that. would have looked lovely in that black ink.
this really is the saddest story.
lol.
i don’t know what more to say, if i should even bother saying any more. i don’t think i’ve really said anything at all yet. and bloody kwaku picked me off the side of the pavement. what a gentleman. the gay grace jones. and i couldn’t stop crying about how the poem had been lost. lord oh lord.
lol.
so what do jim carroll, sam willetts and don marquis have in common? they’ve all been lost i guess. although i feel kind of guilty about the last one.
lol.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
YOU WERE STRONGER YOU WERE STRONGER
WE’RE GOING ICE SKATING AND I STOLE SOME RED WINE
HAHAAAA
I DON’T WANT TO DANCE WITH YOU I DON’T WANT TO DANCE WITH YOU
I’M GOING TO DANCE WITH YOU FOR EVER.
Monday, December 6, 2010
this is night. this is daytime without light, wide eyed and not shy, not reading either just trying all the different positions in bed as laughter comes from downstairs. my eyes are kept open, in rigor mortis, by the caffeine substitute that might be life. every now and again cars pass by. this is every type of jealousy, jealousy of other men and other lives and jealousy of my younger self (my younger life) and the small collection of memories of which it is comprised. beata beatrix. we were a band once, now we’re not. cars roll by, ever deeper, tumbling down a hill to the city centre like loose boulders, towards the river, the natural process of life. it’s all a cycle. we were a band once. beata beatrix. what happens in the end? she dies. my limbs are betrayed by life. this is night.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
ART FILM HOUR AND A HALF
TUBE BACK HALF HOUR (QUICK STOP AT LORD SAINSBURYS FOR POTATO MASHER)
MEET THEM IN THE PUB AGAIN AT THE END OF MY ROAD 10 MINUTES
GET HIGH TWO HOURS (INCLUDING 45 MINUTES TO MAKE PIE AND MASH AND BEANS)
EXTOL THE MERITS OF HUMMUS AND KANYE WEST INDETERMINATE AMOUNT OF TIME
AT SOME POINT IN THE WHOLE AFFAIR I WENT TO BED (FIFA 11?) READ ABOUT THE REAL NEWS IN THE PAPER
AT SOME POINT THE STORY CONTINUES